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I have violent dreams with such regularity and detail that I'm beginning to wonder—why?
( Last night's violent dream. )
I have nightmares more often than any other sort of dream, but "nightmare" for me varies, and is often as simple as a repeated image or action of event. The repetitions are so small and so frequent that I become trapped in them. It happens in my waking thoughts often too, and makes for a unique sort of sleepless disquiet. I have more traditional nightmares too, but historically only rarely and not so violently. And then here these are, a rash of violent detailed dreams (I had another the other night where I died at the end, and they come a couple times a week in this sort of detail). I don't know why. I haven't been particularly stressed, or angry. I do have low impulse control, for violent acts as well, but I've still never really hurt anyone nor wanted to. I no longer have frequent desires to hurt myself. And yet, these dreams.
I've never subscribed to a belief that dreams hold portents or even that they are deep and useful delves into the subconscious. Generally, they come from something in daily life, a collection of images or memories that the brain dredges up in order to think over some more, or out of habit, or by chance. Normally my dreams fit into those realms quite nicely. These, however, do not. They are remarkable, inexplicable, and frequent. And while they don't quite worry me yet (every now and then I wake up upset as a result, but mostly I don't let them bother me), they do make me wonder why they keep occurring.
( Last night's violent dream. )
I have nightmares more often than any other sort of dream, but "nightmare" for me varies, and is often as simple as a repeated image or action of event. The repetitions are so small and so frequent that I become trapped in them. It happens in my waking thoughts often too, and makes for a unique sort of sleepless disquiet. I have more traditional nightmares too, but historically only rarely and not so violently. And then here these are, a rash of violent detailed dreams (I had another the other night where I died at the end, and they come a couple times a week in this sort of detail). I don't know why. I haven't been particularly stressed, or angry. I do have low impulse control, for violent acts as well, but I've still never really hurt anyone nor wanted to. I no longer have frequent desires to hurt myself. And yet, these dreams.
I've never subscribed to a belief that dreams hold portents or even that they are deep and useful delves into the subconscious. Generally, they come from something in daily life, a collection of images or memories that the brain dredges up in order to think over some more, or out of habit, or by chance. Normally my dreams fit into those realms quite nicely. These, however, do not. They are remarkable, inexplicable, and frequent. And while they don't quite worry me yet (every now and then I wake up upset as a result, but mostly I don't let them bother me), they do make me wonder why they keep occurring.
